sweetlove

sick

2010-08-08T20:49:00.003+08:00

alright. back again after some time now. hello world. school have been tough. well, things never come easy anyway. been staying back almost every week. until, i got myself terribly sick. awesome. went for an interview last friday. just hope i get the job though.

my saturday was awesome i must say. im recovering. had practice in the afternoon. dance till late afternoon. really perspire my ass out. haha! head home, had a cool shower then doll myself up. picnic over at keppel bay was way way awesome! papa hazreel came to fetch me in a black car. followed by aennlove. then off we head there. the chicken was yummy. watching the budak gemoks play twister was damn hilarious. but too bad i didn't get to play. chat with aennlove. drink. eat some more. camwhore. it maybe a short one but i enjoyed myself.

went off around 11. art send me home. didn't plan to go anywhere after that as i got performance in the morning. but, this legs of mine just can't keep still. put my back at home and off we go ktm to have burger ramly. damn yummy. but i can't finish it. it was really fun to be going out together in big group i must say. reached home around 2. had late night talk with sis and wash my face. wake up 5.30 to get ready. dang! 3 hours of sleep is still not enough!!!

haha! performance was okae. caught up on the first dance. tsk. but we did well for the second one. glad we did. :) head home straight with nia and found ourselves on the next bus stop. walked under the hot sun back home. sleep my afternoon through. im still aching all over though. home alone right now.

wanted to go party. but i don't the cash! arghhh!! really hate this part. im so freaking bored right now. that's why im blogging. i think i just crapping down here. wanted to head boon lay. but seriously im just so tired. ahmad wanted to pay for the cab fare but still... i can't make up my mind. im still not done with school work. if i were to go out, i wouldn't have the time to do then. arghhh!! what now? haha!

alright. won't go on. you, people will get bored too.
so yeah.
nights.

lotsa loves, sue.

utterly disappointed.

2010-07-05T01:16:00.005+08:00

surprise me.
im upset with you.

thinking about your actions.

just what are going through your mind?

im back. :)

2010-06-30T19:49:00.007+08:00

hello people! im finally back again! missed blogging tho. been quite sometime now. i bet you people must be wondering what i have been doing huh? well, i went through many events during those days i can't seem to sit down and have a time for myself. school has been tough tho. apart from that, i faced different kinds of problems too. typical much?

but all these events does not even bring me down. i've taken life more positively i must say. i've learnt to be more mature in handling everyday situations. it ain't easy. but somehow, i manage to pull it all through.

im seriously in desperate need of getting a job. i can't seem to do nothing for my mom. but im afraid i can't cope with school and work at the same time. oh gosh... what can i do?! i want to help mom. if only money do come flying down from the sky. alright. me and my crap.

im still not done with art. school is starting next week. dang! gonna get all hectic again. i bet i won't get any rest again. aside from that, 11 july i got performance!!! only left with a few practices. i wonder how we cope on that day. hmmm... so worried about this coming performance. :( i wanted to quit. i think it' s better that way. maybe i should concentrate more on studies. oh man... decisions.

as for my love life? happy ending? im not sure about it. most of my post seem to be about him. i know, y'all get tired of it. don't worry. i got nothing much to say about it either. im much happier now. im really glad i am. i'll promise i be good, dear. hahaha! until next time folks!

nights.

loves, sue.

xoxo

p.s stop complaining and be good to your loved ones. ha!

bullshit.

2010-04-02T18:08:00.003+08:00

well, hello people. back again.

somehow, im sick and tired of facing the same thing over and over again.

truth really hurts. it was just pretendance all along.

gee, thanks.

given a lot of chances.

took it for granted.

and now, you're asking for more?

enough. i had enough.

sincerity. never did.

ego. huge one.

selfish too.

loving me? never did.

hahahahaha! what a joke!

a jerk you are tho.

leave me alone, can?

please, for once.

good evening.

loves, sue.

believing in love?

2010-03-24T14:40:00.006+08:00

yet again im just a girl.

the girl who just want to be loved.

im deeply in love with someone.

yes i do.

but im not sure for him.

he gave me hopes.

he crashed it.

he come back again.

why? why is that so?

i don't get you.

just what did you want from me?

i have no idea.

you keep avoiding it.

you let ego leads.

you think everything is just fine.

you're wrong.

i seem to be the problem to you.

i know i ain't no big deal to you.

i am the bad girl to you.

i am not perfect to you.

i was given a choice.

but i choose you.

why didn't i give others the chance that i gave you?

you take me for granted, do you?

i should have given up long ago.

i didn't, did i?

please...

i got feelings too.

stop manipulating me.

really.

im tired. i can't be bother anymore.

thanks to you.

sorry.

i know im no good.

stop doing this to me.

i just hate it.

i felt sorry for the ones who try so hard.

the effort that they put in.

making me happy and all.

they deserve better, dear.

oh my...

make something happen please.

just anything.

im still confused.

till then folks.

have a good day.

lotsa loves, sue

xoxo

p.s sometimes the one you looking for is just next to you.

the birthday girl

2010-03-21T03:16:00.005+08:00

firstly, thanks to everyone that wishes me. on this very day. it does make a huge difference to me even though it's just wishes from you people. i really appreciate it much i must say. i have never been so thankful to have you people around me. y'all really got me speechless. im all smiles even till now. haha! my cheeks are all cramp now. :P

mommy, the birthday wish coming out from you really means a lot to me. it touches me so deep that i shed a tear. if only i could stay by your bed and celebrate it with you. but just too bad i can't. i just want to be you home right now. oh yes. im crazy. i want you beside me so badly mommy. now, i sounded more like a spoilt kid. haha! im not alright. i just want mommy. :)

second sis and fiance bought me cookies in bugs bunny jar. sweet enough? ha! to those people that sing me the birthday song, you guys are such a dear. i just hope i can dig my own hole and hide myself in there. lucky y'all didn't get to see how blushed i was! hahaha! okay, thinking of it make me smile to myself. thanks y'all.

i really can't stop. it's tiring to smile tho. but i like this feeling of mine right now. okay, weird. can somebody just slap me now? it's 4am in the morning and im not asleep! gosh! well, better go now. thank you all that have wishes me. it's an awesome 18th birthday i must say even there's no celebration. love y'all.

p.s im still smiling! gosh!

lotsa loves, sue.

xoxo!

mommy's love

2010-03-20T02:17:00.008+08:00

sadly, mommy's been warded since monday. back and fro the hospital is a tiring thing to do. we haven't been sleeping for good these days. just can't stop from worrying about her. i don't mind all the tiredness, those aching backs we had from sleeping at the sofa. as long as mom get well soon, we're glad enough.

mom, please be strong. hang on alright? im sure you'll get better soon if you believe in yourself mommy. :) i know it may seem easy to say but it maybe difficult to do. but im positve enough my mommy is ain't no weak. she's just like the superwoman. fighting her way through all odds.

afterall these years, you've been working hard to bring us all up. i know it ain't easy. i know it' s tough. especially in this cruel, cruel world. as the young one, i know, i can be quite naughty at times. rebellious too? for those 18 years of mischievious deeds i've done, im sorry mom. guess, i still need a lot to learn huh?

i apologise mom. i know i've been such a bad girl. you never really lift a finger on me. well, except for the time when i was much younger. even when rebel taken over, you still keep your cool and talk to me nicely. i couldn't stop but to blame myself. why shouldn't i be grateful enough with what you've done.

i could not stop thanking you. im just so thankful to have a wonderful mom like you. you raise me up like no other. you have always remind me. you would go like this, "sue, you're my only hope. please make this family proud". i'll try my best mom. i still got another year in ite to prove myself. i'll do you good, dear mommy.

mommy, i'll be visiting you again first thing in the morning. cheer up alright? i hate seeing you in pain. i really can't wait to celebrate my wonderful 18th birthday with you. im pretty sure it'll be a great one, specially with you. i'll pray for your happiness, good health and long live mommy. i love you dearly.

get well soon.

you're the sunshine to this wonderful 18 years i've been living.

thank you, dear mommy. loves!

him

2010-03-12T18:02:00.002+08:00

i hate to i admit that i misses you so much. sigh~

like finally.

2010-03-10T17:04:00.002+08:00

finally, school for the terms just ended.
woohoo!
anyone care to party?
hahaha!

i won't say much.
i know i haven't been updating this little blog of mine.
seems like ages. lol.
well, i'll get back soon.

just a little something that happened the past few weeks.
projects, assignments and exams.
been kinda uptight during those days.
everything just get on my way.

so yeah.
im missing him.
why? i don't know.
sigh.

lotsa loves amigos.

what's love?

2010-02-18T17:50:00.005+08:00

first, you came into my life.
we were cool.
and you bring love.

you make me go crazy over you.
then, you go with someone else.
just what the hell are you thinking?

alright. whatever.
i've tried forgetting you.
but you came back.

so yeah.
i 'welcome' you back.
but everything's different.

again, i started to feel for you.
you never change.
you never will.

i make effort for the relationship.
still, you don't care.
shitass.

i hate you.
you little selfish elf.
you really are one.

what am i to do now?
i really love you.
but do you?

you just come and go.
what am i?
wake up, boy.

maybe i should give up.
you really don't care.
naah...you don't.

have a nice day folks!
true friends are just near you.
open up those eyes and see.

lotsa loves, sue.
xoxo

sorry

2010-02-03T22:00:00.010+08:00

mommy...
i love you.
you know i do.

im sorry.
i can't do much.
i wish i could.

mommy...
get well soon.
im really worried about you.

i can't afford to lose you.
i know im no good.
be happy mom.

i know you're upset.
i wish i could bring your pain away.
as it really pains me watching you.

god, i'll pray to you.
may mom get well soon.
bring her sorrows away.

mommy...
im here for you.
you're never alone.

mommy...
i love you.
more than anything that is.

simply sukini

2010-01-30T18:04:00.002+08:00

being me.

home alone.

2010-01-24T21:45:00.001+08:00

nothing much to say here. really. just something out of boredom.

zoo trip tomorrow.

nights people.

days like this.

2010-01-20T21:04:00.004+08:00

school have gone along fine. but it seems so hard to face you nowadays. it's different now. the feelings and all. well, i don't know. i won't say much here.

nowadays, it's hardly that you call me.
i have no idea why.
are you mad at me?
but what have i done this time?

i miss you.
do you?
well, i doubt so.
it's obvious enough.

or maybe, you're just avoiding me.
i really am clueless.
im tired.
i can't seem to do anything now.

so yeah. just be happy.
whatever it is...
im waiting still.

shitass

2010-01-16T20:09:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIG BRO!

today's my brother birthday.
but he's on his own now.
so yeah.

im home alone.
waiting for you to ask me out.
you told me your head was spinning.
so i choose not to bother you.
then, you called.
saying you're going out with your friends.

sometimes, i wonder.
do you mean what you said.
when you missed me.
i wonder.

but guess, im just stupid.

saturday.

2010-01-16T15:30:00.002+08:00

bring me out!

love.

2009-12-25T19:21:00.001+08:00

i love you, yes i do!
and that's period.

looney girlfriends!!!

2009-12-23T03:04:00.006+08:00

i love these two looney monsters!

just can't wait for aenn's darla chalet.

rimzie! it's gonna be your awesome day i tell ya since it's your 18th birthday!

im missing my dearest friend, mohd tabrani bin hamid.

you owe me ben and jerry plus a movie treat, dickhead!

haha! alright! nights people!

lotsa loves, sue.

p.s your true friends are just near you.

ho ho holidays!

2009-12-13T21:20:00.004+08:00

im on holidays! let's party ho! haha!

ben and jerry for celebration.

adidas shopper bag?

mcdonalds for supper?

what else?

sentosa, next please!

fooled.

2009-11-29T22:37:00.009+08:00

dearest barney. great friends always. teman tapi mesraku.

is this love?

i don't know.

never been so much in love.

yet again. hurt.

isn't being in love the greatest feeling anyone could ever feel?

yes. FOOLED.

why is that so?

i don't know.

im tired. school projects are just bringing me down.

why must you do this?

you want me to be honest.

i did. how about you?

have you do your part?

i won't say anything about it.

i tried to forget you.

but why must you come appearing before me?

yet times and times again...

did you ever notice me?

did you ever care?

i've asked for nothing much.

guess you just take me for nothing.

okae. i get it.

then, just let me go.

yes, indeed i do love you.

more than anything.

apart from my family that is.

maybe i never believe those words before.

but i can't hide it anymore.

i think of you day and night.

why? why is that so?

when you're outside having fun.

tell me the reasons why, can you?

it hurts so much.

im just gonna cry in silence.

never been so emotionally affected.

but i guess, you make me like this.

now, i see no point to everything.

maybe this gonna be my last.

im letting it be.

if it's love, it'll come back to me.

if it's not, then it'll not be.

for the last time.

i love you dear.

i really do.

but i guess, im just not good.

thanks for all the memories.

really. i'll never forget you.

just take care.

all the years, you have been the one for me.

but i guess, you see nothing of that in me.

i miss your everything.

goodbye love.

he's a dickhead.

2009-11-16T22:19:00.006+08:00

so yeah. there you go. a picture tells you a story. this one? naah.. it's not based on true story. ha! it's just me. i ain't no cigarette smoking. pretending, yes. sometimes, it drives me to smoke looking at my friends giving it a puff. but yet again, what would i gain? losing of money most likely. haha! believe there's a say saying that passive smoker die faster. so what now? ha! let's just hope i won't be the one dying first! haha! okae, lame.

well, im not sure if im being myself these days. school's project are just giving me a spin. just lots of 'em. wonder how im gonna complete it all. friends issue. gosh. f* loads of it. it all seems like a huge blow to me. not to mention mustaqim's acting project. he's a friend from ite bedok who need help. lol. gonna meet up with them soon. hopefully we get to finish it all. school is just gonna be 2 hours tomorrow. ha! plus, children's event on friday. fuhh! it's really sucking up all my energy.

getting weaker by the day because of you. am i getting back to the old me? i hope not. im becoming more helplessly restless. deep within me, im just crying my hearts out. you don't even know that. don't you? it's okae. it doesn't matter now. i've made the confessions. you make it clear to me now. guess, i should stop. well, literally yes. i've told you. i'll never give up. you hurt me umpteen times already. but yet again, i'll forgive you.
im just sorry for screaming at you, throwing you all those bad words. i hope i can take it back. but naah.. i've been holding on to it for too long. somehow, i can't take it any longer. im angry still but i see no point feeling that way. i am really sorry.

maybe things are just gonna be different now. be happy deary. i know you're just being you. things will never change between us. those tears seems nothing to you. you never did care. neither you will think about it. so yeah. just letting it be. :)

dickhead.

lotsa loves, sue.
xoxo
p.s just leave your life to the fullest!

what's new?

2009-11-14T00:11:00.001+08:00

projects in. stress back again. too many things at a time. what else? just simply stress. bye.

lotsa loves, sue
xoxo

home alone.

2009-11-08T22:11:00.003+08:00

home alone. hungry. what else?

fool. im really am. fool in this big thing called LOVE.

im loving you. but it is worth?

all this while, maybe it's just nothing to you.

thanks.

maybe it's time i should back off. i feel like im holding you back.

go ahead and go far.

don't leave me hanging anymore.

you deserve all the rights to be happy with whom you love.

yet again, im just a friend.

ha! guess this is it.

goodnight.

lotsa loves, sue.

xoxo.

p.s when you don't love that someone anymore, don't leave them hanging. :)

what's right and what's wrong?

2009-11-04T02:25:00.008+08:00

back again. frankly, i've been kinda lazy with all this cyber thingy. so yeah. don't mind me. im finally blogging today. so many things happened. days when everything just went along fine and also days when things just got messed up.

confused. i really am. im like lost in the middle of nowhere. you have bought me far now and there you go. just like that. what am i? im really tired of the same old thing again and again. please. can you just make things clear? im not blaming you for not trusting me. well, neither do i trust you that much. so many things happened between us. how can i ever forget what we've been through all these years? but still, i never had give up on you. i had always tried my best to trust you, to make you happy. but to you?

i really don't know what's right or wrong. what i should do, what i should say to make you realise. it's you and your ego huh? hey, have you ever think about giving in? about whose fault it is? yeah. it's easy to spot someone else's mistake. but have you ever looked into yours? think deep. about whose feelings you've hurt without you realising. i won't say much here. figure it out yourself.

everday, i missed you more and more. im always looking forward to every weekend. well, i don't know about you. maybe you don't even feel the same way huh? look, i've never give on you. so why must you give up on yourself? so yeah. just be happy. im always here for you.

im sorry, im not a perfect friend.

im sorry, im not good.

im sorry, i fail to cheer you up.

im just sorry... for every mistakes that i've done to you. you deserve all the rights to be happy. just hope you'll read this. im just gonna remain quiet about it.

lotsa loves, sue

p.s i love you.

monday blues.

2009-10-06T01:47:00.004+08:00

nothing but your shirt on.
but you still make me so confused.

so yeah. back again. been going out since wednesday. that's why this late post.

wednesday: went ou with senior nigel. accompanied him to get some stuff. met him at my place. went city hall straight. head to the shop near peninsular then went suntec. went to cotton on since he wanna look at the clothes there. saw this dark blue skinny jeans which cost only like 10 bucks i think. been looking for one. but too bad i don't have the cash yet. ha! nigel wanted to get it for me but i was kinda shy about it. haha! don't know why i turned down his offer. lol! walked around then meet up his colleague. went Starbucks to chill. and head back home with my sister.

thursday: went to a salon at square one near novena there. 1st sis wanna have a dye and a haircut. as her friend who was a hairstylist work there. went there with mommy and 2nd sis. reached there at 2 but everything ends until 7. gosh! what a long waiting hour at the salon. cam whore with my 2nd sis. walked around the mall. have sushi, bubble tea. blablabla... then, when it's done, we went newton to eat seafood!!! yummy! was really enjoying the food till i got a tummy upset. maybe too much spicy food. but it was damn delicious!!! ha! don't get me started. lol!

friday: went out for raya outing with my ite friends. was late due to my tummy! damn! missed out the first house and went straight to teck whye, zatie's house. had my drink and off we go. plan didn't go too well due to the time. so we all ended up at aniqah's house at 12. hidayah's boyfriend have to sent me home then. thanks ey?

saturday: out raya again with my secondary friends. were late again due to my irritating stomache!!! it's just so hurtful that i had hard time walking. went to bukit batok first. when the night began, it get even more fun. one part when shahib wore my heels, holding my pink clutch. he was so hilarious! ha! okae. went home with khairiah and have a chat we her awhile.

sunday: went out raya with the clapclapsnap! my house was the first. my tummy still hurts somehow. haiz... woke up around 10 as they planned to come at 11 plus. the house was in a mess. so i did some spring cleaning. was kinda panic when ahmods text me that he wanted to head to my house with alan first. i was not even ready!!! i was still in shorts and my spaghetti straps. ha! but i manage to do it somehow. the plan didn't go that well. some were late. but overall, it was really fun. izzul, ahmods never stop teasing me. alan and harace too! ha! feels like slapping them. haha! was playing along to their nonsense all along. sorry guys! but anyway, thanks for making me laugh. went home with nawary. then waited for the cab with him. reached home at 1 plus. went to bed straight after my wash up and slept through until 3! gosh! then slack till now. ha!

and that's about it. was damn sad today. boy, you make me cry again. why? why you act like nothing happen? aiya. why am i feeling hurt? you're just a friend. but why do you make me so confused times and times again. just hoping for you to make me happy back again. really long time since the last time i met you tho. im really missing you. well, anyway...

lotsa loves, sue
xoxo
mmuacks!
p.s be appreaciative of the people around you.

selamat hari raya!

2009-09-25T01:26:00.020+08:00

im on holidays! yeah!

beloved granny and barney darla. missed!

us in the car after a late night. haha!

our happy days.

new year '08.

so old.

all about being us.

joy that we shared.

so last year. this year? not even sure if there is. ha!

firstly, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI everyone! to all my beloved friends, forgive me for all my wrongdoings aite? may y'all have a great day this festive season! well, i know it's a lil too late to wish everyone now but yeah been kinda busy these days preparing for the house and all. so people, let's us enjoy ourselves!!! yyeaah!! :P

and yeah! i finally get to upload my pictures! was so so happy when i log in! haha! okae. that's it. the reason i had all my pictures with barney darla was because this year on the 23rd of September, we're celebrating our 4 years of friendship! but, somehow i think it's much longer than that. ha!

to you.

hey, without we realising it's already FOUR long years. those times when im with you, you never fail to make my day. well, even tho sometimes we had some misunderstanding going on. but still, you would try ways to make me forget about it. i must say, we've been through a lot during these years. who would have thought we overcome it and now, the friendship still go on. as for today, i can see that we're much happier. let's just hope it'll remain that way always then tho it maybe impossible to happen.

but although at times you just make me so annoyed, i still forgives you. i just wonder why i would be the one saying sorry after an ugly quarrel. silly me huh? and you, would just remain quiet, acting innocent. just hate that sometimes. but i don't really expect much from you. ha! another thing is, i just wouldn't last a day without a call from you. even tho it maybe just a short conversation. i really enjoyed i must say. those little things that you did for me, i really appreciate it. but somehow, im not able to repay that. one day, i will dear friend.

seeing you happy is all that i ever want. tho we maybe close, getting into relationship was never a thought. but my dear friend, i really wish to see you happy with someone by your side. not a friend but someone special. and i'll be there for you supporting that relationship. i really wish it happen. i'll be glad that you have someone to take care of you. as for me, let's just hope for the same huh? haha! boy, you're still in camp. wonder how you doing down there. msut be hard for you. but too bad, you still have to go through huh? muahahahahaha! *insert evil look with a cheeky smile*

my dear friend, i got something for you. i know it's not much but it's all i can ever afford. well, you know im still not working. ha! one day huh? i treat you something big okae! hopefully! hehe!

so yeah. hope to see you soon. it's okae tho if we can't really celebrate it. im just glad that i have you as my friend, MOHD TABRANI BIN HAMID! hehe!

people! im so alone right now. haha! everyone's out! talking about my holidays. im at home! haha! so what should i do now? maybe stuff myself with food that i can find at home huh? ha! hmm...someone come entertain me please! haha! kidding yo! as for the previous post, let's just forget it. it's actually nothing. was just expressing myself about friends. remember this people! treasure your loved ones cause you'll never know when they'll be gone! :) enjoy your day ahead!

lotsa loves, sue

xoxo!

mmuacks!

p.s you're never alone in this world.

true friends

2009-09-13T04:25:00.002+08:00

back again. it's 4 plus in the morning and i just can't sleep. i've no idea why. i just don't seem to feel easy. it hurts inside me somehow. i've been thinking about it for sometime now. it's still lingers around my head even tho im trying to move on. why? i mean...why can't people just do their own stuff and i do mine? it's over. so why must you bring it back? just don't make me part of it can?

talking about true friends. what is true friend actually? what does it really mean? as far as i know, true friends stand for each other no matter what. they are the ones who know you inside out. true friends don't lie to each other and they don't talk bad behind each other's backs. well, that's what i think. up to each individuals what they think about it. what i heard was something hurtful. something which i never expect. maybe that's how things would go huh? something which you don't expect to happen will likely tend to happen.

i've always been so thankful and glad that i've such great friends. the day when i meet them, who would have thought we would be as what we are now. i've always trust my friends. sometimes, it maybe hard but still, no matter what i know that they are my friends. i've been through a lot with them. both good times and bad times. but it is very saddening when you get to know someone whom you trust, whom you share almost everything with, goes around talking about you. it really hurts to be in that position. it likes thousand of needles piercing through your heart. and the next thing you know is, you would not want to break the friendship despite what they have done to you. you would just remain in silence and let them continue. you are suffering but yet again, you're just unable to let go of the friendship after so long being friends with them. cruel enough huh? you think. that's when you label these people as backstabber or hypocrite. they may appear 'angel' in front of you but they maybe the opposite of what you think.

look, im here not to point fingers at anyone calling them backstabber or hypocrite. neither am i trying to shoot at anyone. no. my main reason was simple. as friends, just be clear of what you said. do what you say, say what you mean. you may not know who's feeling you might hurt. it's a hurtful thing you don't wanna get through. i am dissapointed when i get to know about it. like what i've said earlier on, it's over. it's the past. why would you bring it up? if you think that you deserve all the happiness that you want, then all the more you will get it. i treated you as my friend. even after what had happened. so what do i get in return? im not expecting much. just forget what had happened in the past. you've said that you look at me as your friend. and now, those words came out from your mouth. at first, do you even mean what you said? about me as your friend? or are you saying that for the sake of saying? never have i even hold any grudges against you. i really treasure our friendship but why it ended like this? i trusted you. i've choose to. please. stop all this. im really tired. can we just talk about it? im trying my best not to take it seriously. but deep inside, im just hurt. am i really your friend or...? im just sorry, dear friend. if i ever break your heart. im really am so sorry.

i never been so thankful to all these people around me. i've treasured every bit that we spent our time with. after that long years i've been with them will never be forgotten. thank you all.

for that someone...
im missing you as much as i used to miss you. why is that so? why you keep appearing in my head? i just wonder. yes, indeed you've been so good to me these few months. it's that for real or it's just another 'gimmick' of yours? you've been there for me. my days would never be the same without you. i feel amiss when you're not there or you don't even call me. i've been thinking of leaving you because of the people around us. silly me huh? like what you've said, 'as long as we're happy, why would we even think about what others might think?' you got a point. but somehow, it just came in the way. everytime, i keep thinking about this. im really confused. well anyways...let's just be happy huh? as long as you're happy, i am happy enough for you. i really appreciate everything that you've done for me. thank you, my dear.

lotsa loves, sue
xoxo
p.s im still waiting for that one day.

fatfat and fatcat.

2009-09-09T16:31:00.007+08:00

barney darla. the botakhead now. :)

so hello people. miss me? haha! been having my exams this week. two papers have done. now, left with one and that is communication effectiveness. have to really score on this one. haha! for today paper, luckily i manage to be in school on time. i woke up at 7pm! i felt like i wrote crap on the paper. i bet the teacher will have hard time rading it. haha! nasty me! :P

i've been kinda restless lately. no idea why tho. maybe it's because of the fasting month? hmm...so yeah, we finally get to finish up the dance for hari raya performance at bukit batok. funny steps we got too. lol. but too bad, my family and friends will not get to watch it. and that is on the 10th of october. the tickets itself cost 10 bucks?! ha! i had training again for today. feels kinda lazy lurr. but what to do, i still need to go and brush up on our steps.

currently, im over at barney's crib. rush all the way here after school. been helping him with his army stuff and some writing which he wanted me to do. im able to upload my pictures here but too bad, most of them are at home. again, a boring post huh? i hope my computer will be fine the next time i blog. ha! barney darla will be doing his duty for a few hours later and only be back tomorrow. that botakhead is such an ass sometimes. feel like knocking that bald head of his tho. haha! finally get to see fatcat! that cute lil' blackie. :)

i miss granny. suddenly, her image just appeared in my head. i wonder how is she now up there. this coming raya just won't be the same without her. i miss her laksa. it's weird that only hers is my number one favourite. granny, wherever you are, i know you are watching over us. i make sure i'll take care of mommy. as for dad, i just hope he's able to knock some sense into himself. sometimes, i just hate him. but he's still my flesh and blood. i can't deny that. i love you, my dear granny.

wish me all the best for tomorrow's paper huh? let's just hope i do quite alright for it. i miss all of my friends. espeacially my two shugga pops. meet up soon darla. not to forget clapclap snap too. take care aite guys?

lotsa love, sue
xoxo!

muacks!

p.s when promises are meant to be broken, so why do people still make promises?

friday night.

2009-08-21T21:39:00.001+08:00

so yeah. back again. still, blogger is making problems. i can't seem to upload my pictures. so my blog gonna be a dry one here. bare with my boring post huh? anyway, school's only for 2 hours today. my classmates had their presentation and after that we did a short revision on fax writing. had puttu mayam brought by hazira. haha! eat till we got mess all over. we're just like kids who haven't been eating for days. lol! after school we went mcdonalds for lunch. had shaker's fries! yummy! lame jokes about kambing and stuff. haha! okae. you know, i know huh? walked around and head home.

it's gonna be the fasting month tomorrow! to my muslim friends out there, SELAMAT BERPUASA!!! hehe! be good boys and girls aite? gonna have to watch our words, our actions. be truthful to yourself. y'all know what i mean. try not to miss it ey? well, except for girls? monthly stuff y'all know. somehow, im excited about it! haha!

okae. so what with guys these days? i just don't know. can't we just remain as friends? must a boy and girl be in relationship after knowing each other? well, it's true that the truth may hurts. but somehow i feel that it's always better to be honest. at the same time, we have to always accept it. i was just being honest. but end up, getting sarcasm from you? must i text you everyday to show you that i care? hmm...im really tired of the same old things you said to me. please. im only a friend. treat me like one. i don't wanna be your enemy. and im not someone who fall in love easily. people out there. im not trying to be sexist or whatsoever y'all might think. well, people makes mistakes. not all are perfect. sometimes, being in a great friendship can just fill you up. yes, we may get jealous looking at couples, how sweet they are when they're together but...still, i think we just cannot force LOVE. again, let's just be nice to each other now and have a happy friendship. get this. im not blaming you. neither am i being ego. i just wanna be friends with you. just take care then. haizz...:(

aku kangen banget sama kamu.
kenapa ya?
aku nggak tau.
tiada siapa yang tau.
aku nggak ngerti sama mereka.
kepalaku pusing.
salahkah aku?
aku cuma kangen banget sama kamu deh...

lotsa love, sue
xoxo
mmuacks!
p.s when you think you have fallen in love, think deep. :)

exams tension!

2009-08-18T21:28:00.001+08:00

it's hamizan's birthday today! so HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY HAMIZAN CHAN! hehe! wishing you all the best in everything that you do! good luck for your o levels gemok! be a good brother now that you're a year older. look on the bright side always ya? clapclap snap will plan out something for ya. we love you! :)

okae. apologies for not updating. im back. so what's up with blogger people? urgh...im not gonna say much then. internet do sucks these days. my sis told me that it was due to the taiwan something something? okae. im not sure. so yeah. national day was a blast. went out with barney darla and his buddy, hidhir. moley guy. haha! im kidding! bet he's gonna kill me if he sees this. lol. watch fireworks alone with strangers. as i was lost that night. haiz. connections sucks. but luckily barney darla walked to the traffic light where we watch fireworks the previous week. damn! i was so relieved. i almost wanna cry as i couldn't get to him. and the people are just 'aliens' to me. okae. we walked. had burger king for dinner. went to singapore river and chill. took crazy pictures and head home. happy! :)

the next day which on monday, i sent barney darla back to camp. took bus number 10 all the way to bedok. very long journey tho. barney darla and me was so hungry that we 'drool' everytime we passed a restaurant. haha! funny how we react. anyway, a journey worthwhile. all smiles. :)

school. study, study...well, exams coming lurr...ha! still, i went to watch singapore vs. china on wednesday with clapclap snap. anyway. singapore lost. had penalty. it was 5-3. so wasn't really okae with the 'hardy boys'. it was awkward at first. but in the end, we had a great talk. damn! i miss them so much. i should tahnks ameerul. i think he say something to them that make them talked to me. thanks! :)

met barney darla on friday. had dinner together with his friends at his place. chill till 11 plus as he needs to wake early the next day. had great time with him even tho' it was a short one.

on the saturday, went shisha with my dearest classmates! it was way awesome!!! haha! really enjoyed myself with them. bumped into jufrie. he had his fakie crew lauching somewhere there. he invited me so i went with only haz, asrul and fad. shockingly, asrul's sisters were at the same place. lol. chaotic somehow. end up, i was alone there. they all had to go. tsk! anyway, enjoy watching the clip they had played. head home after that. luckily i did not miss the bus. haha!

as for today, school was just fine. i had 2 plain prata, nasi lemak and apple juice during break. heavy huh? lol! but i was so hungry! i just don't know why. fatfat me! then, it was sports and wellness! played captain's ball with a second year class. man! they were fast but damn rough okae! there was one part when i manage to catch the ball. but end up on the floor! i fall flat on my back. till now, it hurts when i walk. maybe, that's just me. too engrossed in playing. or maybe im just plain clumsy. lol.

it's already 10 plus. he haven't been calling. hmm...would he call tonight? i don't know. i just miss you so much. i can only wait. okae. speaking of the devil. i got a call now. haha! take care everyone! nights!

lotsa loves, sue
xoxo
muuacks!
p.s when you miss someone so dearly, you just don't wanna leave them.

singapore's national day!

2009-08-09T01:31:00.001+08:00

firstly, HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TANIA BOLTON! my dear friend, im wishing you all the best for everything that you do! no matter how hard life can be, you must always work yourself through now that you're a year older! hehe! be a great sister to both your older and younger brothers aite? forget all troubles and celebrate this great day with your loved ones darla! you've always been a good friend! stay cute and crazy tania! haha! never stop singing ar! take care wherever you are! :) love ya!

next, to NURRASUFI, HAPPY 7TH BIRTHDAY my dear lil kiddo! haha! well, you may not get to read this but anyways...here go! all the best too for everything! be a good boy and always listen to your mom aite? listen to my sister too oi! don't be naughty okae! if can, cut down on your toys. grow up sufi darla!!! study hard lil kiddo! hehe! can't blame you tho. do take care too. :) love ya! haha!

okae. been kinda busy with school. naah...not really. just have to decorate the board. very very tiring. to draw, cut, paste...etc...plus, exams coming this early september. man! there's a lot for me to cover!!! teachers have been trying to finish up the topics a.s.a.p and all. test after test. aiyo! lol. so yeah. still, get to have a lil fun with my classmates. funny people. haha! (you know, i know girls! *silat sendeng skit!) muahahahahaha! had celebration in class yesterday. celebrate tania's advance birthday party too. watch 'the confessions of the shopaholic', had A LOT, A LOT of snacks and a chocolate cake! haha! stay back to decorate the board still. turn out not okae as we're all tired. tsk! wasted. seriously, i just wanna do it back all again. it really looked messy! aiya. meet up with my gorgeous darlas at far east around like 8 plus?? haha! late huh? watch an event there and chill. meet apit awhile since he's there. he sent me to the bus stop. blablabla...home. waiting for his call.

as for today, meet barney darla. i don't know why im feeling so pissed today. not with him. but with my brother. tsk! spoil my day. meet barney darla at his place. waited for him to get ready. head chinatown. walk around, look for an atm machine til we reach the CBD area. not that far i guess. lol! had dinner at lau pa sat. we have satays and shared a plate of seafood noodles? ha! then, took the bus to merlion as barney darla got blisters. chill, took some pictures. bought a drink at coffeebean and a cab back to my place. then again, im so pissed with my dad! argh!!! i can't open the door as i have no keys! he closed the window so tight! argggh!! barney darla went home early. kinda sad tho. haiz...anyway, i can't blame him for being tired. im sorry barney dear, for not being in the mood. appreciate it that you try to cheer me up. :)

okae. im gonna end it here. i don't know what's wrong with blogger. i can't upload pictures. so yeah. and, im really worried for aenn darla. she called, crying on the phone. i panic. i wonder what went wrong girl? don't cry my dear. im always here. i hope you're just fine. take care aite?
as for clapclap snap. i no longer feel like im part of you guys. maybe im not even part of you guys in the first place anyway huh? oh well...what can i do. but i really miss hanging out with you people. you guys just know how to make me laugh. even tho, the jokes can be lame or hurtful. lol! so long huh? you guys take good care of yourselves. :)
till then, see y'all around. love y'all. :)

lotsa loves, sue
mmuacks!
xoxo!
p.s know where you stand.

slacking sunday.

2009-08-02T17:41:00.000+08:00

im alone again! all alone now. blogging. woke up quite late today as i slept at 5am yesterday. had my shower then had lunch. 2nd sis bought us some noodles. i make a mess eating it. haha! too delicious i guess? lol! 2nd sis' fiance was here. and today, brother came. along with the two toddlers and a baby. plus, the 'woman or his life'. hehe! no offence. :) played with them. give them snacks. man, this house was really like a playhouse/childcare center. haha! was chaotic somehow.

barney darla text me telling that his temperature was 39.8 degree. damn! that was really high! even worst than mine. he went to the hospital as his condition worsen. feel sorry for him tho. he was supposed to book in today by 8pm. called up the headquater but they only let him get a medical certificate only for 1 or 2 days. pity him. supposingly, the doctor wanted to ward him for a day. but too bad, he had to be back in the camp the day after tomorrow. he called just now. was glad when he told me his alright. phew! good thing nothing happen huh? :) get well soon my dear.

okae. im bored! real bored! and i can't watch any telly. aiya. i feels like eating ice cream. so long i never had them. haha! so what should i do huh? can someone entertain me please! getting restless already lurr... nevermind. i just look at my notes then. got lots of them to cover. ishk! so that's all folks! hello. byebye!

lotsa love, sue
xoxo
mmuacks!
p.s the inside is what that matters the most. not the outside.

sweet saturdays

2009-08-02T03:43:00.011+08:00

pure caramel and dear botakhead! double the sweetness. :)

2 weeks of not having good food. look at barney darla's face! haha!

hey ho! so yeah. barney darla has booked out! after 2 weeks of not meeting him and finally! haha! that was last saturday. really miss him so much tho. meet up at town after going nj's chalet at pasir ris. he was tired. but still, we walked till penisular just to spend the time with me. pity him. went to henderson waves to chill but boredom strikes as there's nothing much there. so we walked back to my home and chill. he was sharing about his life in camp while i shared about my school's stuff. we sat till like 2am in the morning. i would never forget that day.

as for this weekend, i've planned to fetch him home. but last minute, they set him out early. i could not make it on time. so so sorry barney dear. maybe not this time huh? met him quite late. went central awhile then head funan IT mall's mcdonalds for dinner. he had double fillet o fish while i had cheeseburger. we played a game of scissors, paper, stone to eat the nuggets (barney's idea okae!) haha! that was really funny. barney darla can't finish his food as he can't even taste. he was sick. his body was damn hot. gosh. hope he get better soon. if only i could do something about it. :( then, we walked till boat quay. we sat and talked. as he needs to be home early, we walked back to the bus stop. went to my crib. gave him the cold pad to cool him down but it was only awhile. again, we chill. barney darla found a mp3. a pink one. still, he keeps it. went off exactly at 12. so i had to be home alone for the moment.

just for you.

you said something that i wish i could make u repeat it.

again and again.

you said things that make me blushed.

again and again.

you make me laugh at your silly mistakes.

again and again.

you make me go crazy over you.

again and again.
but would that 'again' be 'forever'?

im not sure either. it's you to decide. :)

when you asked me "why do i always call you every night?"

well, i wish i could answer that. i really wish i could.

and im glad. if only things would just remain that way. i want it that way!

please. i really enjoy those lil' conversations we had over the phone.

it's just enough to light up my day. really. thanks my dear...

even tho this is for you but i really hope you didn't get to read this. seriously. hehe!

it's late. i better get some sleep huh? just hope i can send you off tomorrow barney darla. see you real soon. to clapclap snap family, im sorry as i've been busy with school's project and im pretty tired these days. i miss those lame jokes that y'all make, crappy things that y'all do and those lil clapclap snap actions. haha! hope to hangout with you guys soon! take care aite? study hard too ey! together we achieve our goals okae?! hehe!

lotsa loves, sue

xoxo

mmuacks!

p.s let love came knocking at your door. it'll come naturally. just a lil' patience along with great friends, im sure you found your true love. it may be the closest friend you had been with. who knows? haha! :D LOVE Y'ALL!

those happy days?

2009-07-24T21:15:00.007+08:00

i don't smoke. this is a just a pose okae. smoking is bad!! (sorry ahmad, i had no pictures of u in my camera.)

matt hardy, lita and jeff hardy. lol!

plus alan (taking this picture)

ateen! new friend! :)

donuts! that diki bought for me. yummy!

still sick. ishk! boredom kills.

senior nigel a.k.a blurr sotong. haha!

firstly, HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY NUR NASRIAH!!! hehe! wish you all the best in everything my dear girl! you have always light up my days in school. you have never fail to bring a smile on our faces. you're simply the best nas!!! thanks for all the joy and the love that you showered us with. have a great birthday darla! keep on rockin' girl! i'll make something for ya. i'll pass it to you on monday aite? love you truckloads!!! :)

okae. let's not be too emotional. must always look on the bright side huh? lol. thinking of it will just make it even more devastating. aiya. hate it much.

here's what i've been doing for the past week.

monday: went to the Teng's clinic at Stirling Rd. was really hoping to be able to go to school. went in but still, i wasn't okae. i was still coughing and there was still running nose. irritating. went Brickwork to eat and then went to Cik Sara's house. mom's friend. she have like six cats? damn, they were cute!! some were fierce tho. ha!

tuesday: went polyclinic with 1st sis. still, i can't go to school. doc prescribe me some medicine. doc give me two days mc. bought some donuts and went Bukit Batok next. sis wanna do some facial there. then, straight home after that. was quite weak somehow.

wednesday: woke up as usual. had my medicine. wash up and everything. then slack my whole day through. again, alone at home and i was told to go clinic again. so i asked mom for some cash. but it was closed. bought a bun at 7eleven and head home. diki asked me out but im still not okae. when he suddenly appeared at my place with donuts!! i was surprised! touched tho somehow. he went down just to give me that. lol! had a talk with him for awhile and he had to go. thanks diki! really make my day! :)

thursday: again, had medicine. still, at home and not being able to go to school. went to the clinic at my house there. i was feeling better but somehow i had slight fever. temperature was 37.3 degrees. was very sad tho. mom wanted to go sheng siong. accompanied her then went clementi to eat. went home, changed and went out again. meet senior nigel at town. he wanna get some stuff. waited for my sis and went home together. senior nigel was funny that day. haha! he was just so blur. no offence lurr...hehe! cute tho...

friday: had tummy upset first thing in the morning. had a nap till late noon. temperature still not down yet. planned to meet hadi but i was really in pain. but then still, meet up my 1st sis in the train after she finished work. went tampines1 with 2nd sis and sufi. then, head to pasir ris for supper. only had hot tea. still in pain. abg an sent us home.

saturday: went to polyclinic with 1st sis but it was closed early. very disappointing. bought some stuff at ntuc then head home. planned to go tanning with my sisters but naah. postponed again. slack at home. meet clapclap snap a bit later in the afternoon. done some manicure, pack my bag when my tummy hurts again. meet them at Seah Im hawker center. this time, ateen and ramos was there. followed by ahmad. went sentosa. played games, chit chat but by midnight i had to go off. just too bad as i was still sick. :(

sunday: had a wake up call by diki. it was 9 in the morning! i was still so sleepy la. but i can't sleep back! tsk! planned to meet diki up at 1. wash up and randomly pick my clothes and took the train towards pasir ris. had lunch at downtown east's mcdonalds. then waited for the rain to stop. head to the escape themepark with his brother and his fiance. really had fun there! my very first time. had blue blacks all over my leg. haha! really went wild for that day. and again, thanks diki for sending me home. a very long journey we had huh? lol! damn shagged.

so yeah. that's about it. being sick and all. it hasn't been good for me. thanks to all. my dear clapclap snap family, your love, care and concern really helps me get better. not to forget my dearest classmates. i never been much better when y'all are there for me. the love that y'all sent, was really appreciated. thanks guys!!! love y'all!

lotsa loves, sue
xoxo
mmuacks!
p.s the world doesn't ends when you got your loved ones with you.
i can't seem to upload pictures. pictures will be posted once my internet is okae. enjoy your weekend people! :)

utterly discouraged

2009-07-22T22:28:00.003+08:00

well, today im feeling terribly down. seriously i am. i can't take it somehow. it's really hurting me. i was somehow being blamed. maybe it is my fault. i should have know. but i didn't. being sick and alone at home is not that bad after all. going to school after those days was like a wrong move. but i can't help from missing my friends so much. plus, im losing out in class. i missed out quite alot. they had gone through so much. but to me, it's all alien. if only time would just stop.

being in school is like no big difference. except for meeting my friends. today, it all went well until she talked to me. it hurts. what she said, was something i don't expect. i wasn't prepared. my mind is all messed up now. this h1n1 was really a disaster. i hate it. i need to go through so much just to be in school. and because of it too i have to listen to all this 'nice' things. now im in school, i have to face up with big monsters like project work. not only that, i was given a last chance. they'll be 'watching' me. anytime now i can be out. that's how horrible it is. i was being labelled as 'selfish', 'irresponsible'...what's next? seriously, im so so demoralize now. im feeling so discouraged to do anything. especially going to school. but why? im really tired. can i just close my eyes and pretend that nothing happened? can i just run away and do my own stuff? just give me some time. i really needs it. to bring it all back. to find all the pieces, to put it all back together so that i can move on. gosh. im just simply weak. getting weaker by the day.

i miss you. yes, i do.
i really really need you now. wherever u are. just be by my side and don't ever go. my head hurts from all that crying. i don't know why. so can you please stay? i can't even think. it's hard. i wonder how would i face her. to see that face of her. oh, i just need you to be here with me. i can't go on any longer. maybe it's better if i could just close my eyes and end everything. im really really shagged. goodbye all.

lotsa loves, sue
take care people.

still sick?

2009-07-10T20:58:00.004+08:00

gosh. temperature doesn't go down. the school keep calling me. next was my class advisor. they told to me if my temperature still doesn't go down, i have to get back to the doctor. im scared. seriously i am. God, i just hope it will just go away. i MEAN really really just go. i was informed that one of the student from ICB was a confirmed h1n1 victim. i just don't want to be next. most people advise me to hospital. was just afraid i got that h1n1 virus. ishk! hopefully not!

im going to see the doctor again tomorrow. gonna check again with the doctor. this time im going polyclinic. maybe they will provide me with much effective medicine. hehe! the one that can really cure super fast! lol! but seriously, i hope it would just go away. really wanna go out tomorrow. due to this sickness, i can't even go anywhere!!! aiya! all plans were crushed. my 2nd sis looked pale. hopefully she's not affected. if not, i blame myself for that.

so people. do take good care of yourself. this h1n1 is really a big fat monster. just hate it tho. so yeah. do drinks lotsa water everyone. rest well too. eat medicine once you're not feeling okae. not being kiasi or whatever. but better be safe than sorry right? im gonna take my medicine. my eyes are getting heavy, voice changed due to all this coughing. i just wanna get well REAL soon!!! argh...haha!

lotsa loves, sue
xoxo

sickly me

2009-07-10T04:29:00.007+08:00

so yeah. woke up this morning all weak still. been having this fever since last Tuesday night. at first it was just coughing. but it got worst when i had a short nap. before that, i got a call from ITE college west telling me about arie. and that i have to be, by right at home, quarantine. very chaotic somehow. i have to leave school at 11 that day. thought i was just fine but it got even worse as days go by. temperature keeps rising. went to the private clinic near my house. the doctor didn't really say anything about it. took my medication but i feel so giddy. my temperature for this morning was 39.3 degree. it really got worse. really am so panic. but as my sisters help me to cool down and let me perspire, it started to go down. phew! boy, how glad i was. haha! still, the world is like spinning around me when i stands. and when i had my dinner, i don't even get to taste. i don't feel anything even how hot it is. it all taste bland. it's like as good as not eat. my tongue is like all numb now. lol. im still coughing tho. it hurts every time i cough. im like suffering. lol. hope it'll go away soon.

especially for ya...

to barney darla, im gonna miss ya dear friend. even tho' it's only 2 weeks you'll be gone. to me it's still quite long. lol. everyone gonna miss you too! do take care when you're there. eat well too. do eat your medicine if you're not feeling well. okae. he's not gonna even read this anyway. it's only a few hours before he's book in. just wish i can see you off. if only i got magic huh? with just abracadabra and poof! im already beside ya. okae. maybe too much cartoon huh? lol.

dear barney, you maybe far from me.

but you are always near in my heart.

whatever it is, wherever you are...

just take good care of yourself, my friend.

gonna really miss ya...

see ya soon huh? that is like after 2 weeks passed. lol!

that's all folks!

lotsa loves, sue

xoxo

muaacks!

p.s do take care of yourself, people. the weather haven't been too good. most of my friends are getting sick. so yeah. just look out for each other aite? get well soon. (to clapclapclap snap) i miss y'all. my classmates too. :)

back to school!!!

2009-07-06T22:56:00.006+08:00

hello people! apologies for not updating. been kinda busy these days. hazira, safira and nas are finally back from the batam trip. really regret for not going. tsk! well, anyway as for today, school starts at 8. as usual. was really really tired as i were still in the holiday mood. seriously, i was not ready for school today. feels like sleeping still. but naah...school is still school. i have to attend as i ain't sick. thank God. forced myself to the shower, ironed my uniforms and packed my bag for school. gosh. i was still sleepy tho. went out 5 minutes late. lol. slept in the bus halfway. mp3 was dead then. but glad i was reaching bishan. ha!

as we reached school, we have to take our temperature. the 'thermometer' was like a gun. haha! i was 'shot' but i was okae. temperature was only 36.5 degree Celcius. get this orange sticker. haha! cute huh? feels like i was in the hospital. back in the class. finally get to see my beloved ICAs. hehe! still, we have to check our temperature. tsk! but we must always be safe than sorry ey? ;) as for mrs thanni, class haven't start yet. she let us use the computers. had nuggets first thing in the morning. yummy! missed the auntie's nuggets!!! lol. everyone was very chatty when we were in miss dorcas' class. haha! funny miss dorcas make a joke about blinking. learnt about cognitive development. talk more about brains. so yeah...as for ms pearl's class, we get back our first assignment back. thought i get D as it was completed last minute. but luckily i get a B+ for it. quite okae la. get to see fluffy the teddy bear and he sat with me through out the whole lesson. hehe! :P

stayed back after school to do miss dorcas' project. the wood was already been cut out. it looked just nice. can't wait to see the outcome. :) we sand the blocks, discuss and improvise our work. but my brain was a bit slow for today. haha! not much idea came in my mind. lol! it was raining. everyone got their own umbrellas except for hazira. hehe! saw my eye candy today too! after 3 weeks break finally get to see him! haha! okae. i ain't desperate over him actually. hazira was jokingly saying that im like a stalker when i was constantly looking at him on the other side. haha! hilarious. well, he looked chinese but im was not sure if he's really a malay. hmmm...so yeah. head home straight as it was already 5pm. slept my way back home again since i don't have my entertainment. i think i looked really ugly while sleeping but who cares since im so so tired. hehe! just so unglamorous huh? lol!

when you accused me of something not right. it hurts somehow. but what can i do. maybe you have been wanting to say that long time ago. it's okae. i forgive you still. things happened for a reason. after one, it leads to another. that's just life i guess huh? and as for arie, i hope you get well soon my dear friend. i know it's not easy for ya. family problems is just something you can't really avoid sometimes. and what you are facing now, you should all the more fight it. be strong aite? we're all gonna be here for ya no matter what. :)

mommy.

i love you...

i've been bad.

and i know it.

but whatever it is, i just want you to know that you are not alone.

we love you, mommy.

be strong and im sure you will be fine.

lotsa loves, sue

xoxo

muacks!
p.s in this world, you are never alone. those people around you are the ones who have been there for ya. always appreciate them before you regret it. figure it out. ;)

Life's a beach yo!

2009-06-24T23:03:00.024+08:00

love this picture! look the way the lights goes! haha!

new friends are loved!

hafiz and isham!!!

party yo! getting all silly!

performance by the Plainsunset was a BLAST!!!

people having fun! weeeeee!!!

people that simply keep it happening! let's party!!! haha!

nawari,harris,izzul,ameerul,namie,aidil,aenn darla and me!

so yeah. went to Life's a beach last saturday. mayn...it was sure a blast! had lots of fun. met up with new people. ameerul's friends. they were great people too. planned to meet up at 5.3opm but end up people were late. and hey, it's not me this time. hehe! woke up around 12 in the noon. take my time, watching tv. basically just slacking. till it was around 4pm. text aenn darla about what to wear. well, she herself was still not sure by then. haha! had my shower, getting ready so as not to be late. same goes to my second sister who was also getting ready to go out. her fiance came over and waited for her. soon, they left me alone at home. still, figuring out what to wear. haha!

but after awhile, i just put on a simple shirt on. ha! take my time packing my bag, doll myself up. then, called ameerul up. only to find out that he's only on his way to pick aenn darla up. haha! and guess what? being alone. i took pictures of myself. okae. i know. vain enough huh? but what can i do? they were still at jurong! my house were just a few stops away to sentosa. hehe!

went out at 6.30pm. still, not all were there. so we went for dinner. some were late due to soccer. so yeah. soon, when we reach there, find our place. put our stuff and change. off we go towards the crowd. haha! bump into isham, hafiz and ipin mole. some familiar faces around. we jumped, we danced, we scream and shout. gosh! what a night! haha! was happy when my sister let me overnight last minute. we played games. it was fun and hilarious! chan played the guitar very well i must say. at one time, we all gather and sang together. soon when the sun rises, we hit the water!!! haha! at first aenn darla don't want to get in. but too bad, she was carried in! hehe! didn't sleep the night before but i was so energetic. weird tho. haha! as aenn darla was tired, she and ameerul head home. same goes to me as i got plans in the afternoon. while the rest had their breakfast.

well, things happened. i don't even wanna say what really happened. just hate it. things are going the right way. i broke down real bad. haiz...anyway, im okae! so why bother talk about it huh? im looking forward to talk to that someone again. oh boy. when will that be. haha! till then, that's all folks! gonna update real soon ey? haha!

lotsa love, sue

xoxo

mmuaacks!

p.s for the people out there, always be careful with your words. you may not know who's feelings you might tend to hurt. :)

holidays in!!!

2009-06-16T12:08:00.033+08:00

idiotic enough huh? hehe!

my mcdonald breakfast! yummy!

look at that! izzatie enjoying lurr...

see that tired faces!!! hehe!

all smiles after their first bite in the morning...haha!

look at me! so so LOVE the sun lurr...beautiful ey?

as it rises...

as the sun is coming...just look at the sky, people!

fad, niq and me!! i look so out! haha!

the whole bunch of ICA girls...not all actually...some were missing!

me and aini nie! hehe!

it's izzatie here...cute lil petite she is...smaller but matured. you, people don't wanna mess with her. hehe!

sweet hidayah...

asrul! the class 'sayang'...hehe! no offence asrul!

meet sallymellysallylove! hehe!

danial here...

safira lurr!

he called himself mimi...from ICB!he's din! from ICB too!

hazira yo!

nasriah! our beloved 'tyra'...haha!

only pic i took with karthiga...the one beside me...

aniqqqqah!!! ICA's Mariah Carey...hehe!

diyanah bebey!

ladies!!! flaunt it!

hola! the pictures is clear enough that my class went for a bbq outing. it was held on last saturday. we had loads of fun laa. the intention of having this class pit was to actually bond ICA with ICB. but too bad, only a number of ICB turned up. thanks to them tho'. planned to meet up at 2pm. but my mom did some cooking so i stayed to eat and asked the rest to go ahead. when i found out that nas and some of them were not there yet. haha! after eating, i got this tummy upset! damn! took my time, pack my stuff then head to habourfront to take the train.

was in the train when hazira suddenly called me. she sounded so angry. i actually thought she was scolding me. it really scared me as she sound so fierce. but the fact is, she's angry with safira. they planned to meet up but safira got some problems. so i met up hazira in the train. when fadhilah suddenly text me asking where i am. thought she's already on the way there. but she was late too. we end up meeting at pasir ris interchange. soon when we got there, the wind was blowing so strong! our hair were all over our faces and we were holding on to each other as we walked. haha! damn cold. soon as we reached, it drizzled a bit. it was only like around 6pm we started bbq.

at first, my first sis don't really let me overnight. but after awhile, i decided to text her. asking her permission laa. and guess what? haha! she let me. hehe! only a few of us overnight. we talked about some ghost stories laa. some experiences in school and alot of other stuff. no one gets to sleep. fad was the one who suggest.

fad: whoever sleep, will get water bombs throw at them.

us: what?! serious huh? aiya!

fad: i don't care! who's the first one, they will get it!

us: okae! okae! we don't sleep!

and guess what?

after a few hours, one by one started to sleep. except me. haha! wth?!

if i were to sleep, no one look after our belongings. so i stayed up. looking at each of them sleeping can be funny. hehe! sorry guys. y'all looked cute tho'...

while being awake, i waited for the sun. when the sky started to change, i ran towards the shore. took some pictures of how beautiful the sky is. and when i went back, one by one started to wake up. except for fad and zatie. wanna know what i did to wake them up?? hehe!

i took the guitar i started singing. (i don't even know how to play la!)

and yes! they woke up. watch the sunrise, clear the place and off we go! only me, diyanah, zatie, haz, asrul and din went for some breakfast at mcdonalds. yummy! was all the way making fun so as to cheer them up first thing in the morning. hehe! just glad to see those smiles on their faces. went home, had a bath and watch tv. then fall asleep. wake up, being alone at home!

well, i don't know why i was getting kinda emotional these days. things which i don't expect to happened, had happened. and the people whom i close to, is like getting far apart from me. it's like the friendship that we had is fading. i don't know. i just don't know what's happening. gosh. i hate it. i started to feel like im all alone. so yeah. people out there. do always treasure the ones around you. don't ever take them for granted or even hurt their feelings. till again, that's all folks. have fun. and do take good care of yourselves.

lotsa loves, sue

sukini loves y'all...

xoxo

p.s whatever that someone had did for you, always appreciate them for what they have done.

happy days like this...

2009-06-10T22:42:00.008+08:00

a girl who had always love that 'someone' so dearly...

wonder would he be mine...haha! ya right! lol. friends always! :)

funny faces!!! barney dearie looked idiotic! haha! no offence darlin! :P

ignore the face! haha!

if only it'll remain this way...

looneys!!!

pouting pout boo boo!

so yeah...hello people. back again. firstly, the weather so hot these days i must say. but im getting sick. weird huh? body aching already, just feel so lazy to go to school. my body is hot too. even tho' im under the air con, i can still feel the heat on my body. just hope i get well soon. school holidays next week ho! haha! still, projects need to be done. gonna get busy still lurr...and now, im alone at home. uploading pictures, watching funny videos. yeah. tania send me this cute video. even her brother too. make me laugh out loud alone. haha!

okae. today, we're suppose to be in school by 9am but i overslept. took the circle line and reach school 30mins later. feels hot so i took my own temperature. hehe! better be safe than sorry ey? lol. my temperature was 37.5 degree Celsius. guess im not that sick huh? but now im coughing really badly. aiya...something happened to diyanah. hope she's just fine. im really worried about her. just hope i can be the supergirl and save her. lol. in miss dorcas class we did alot of activities. outdoor and indoor. everytime when miss dorcas says "stop!", we were like "huh?? so fast ar? one more game la cher..." haha! really deprived of childhood laaa. had so much fun!

after school, had some lunch in the canteen. fad keeps asking asrul about the pretty girls around. damn funny! i wonder what will asrul think of us. haha! pity him that he have to answer such questions. hehe! went to united square after that. went to toys'r'us and looked around. did some discussions and head home. tired and weak all over. due to the weather. phew! hope it rains soon. hehe! two more days to my first school break! haha!

yesterday, went down to barney's crib. meet him at night as i have to collect my pay and stuff. starting to already have a running nose actually. so irritating! barney thought i was tired. but not really. ha! we went to the nearest coffee shop and bought some dinner. we had western! he ordered lamb chop while i took the chicken cutlet. damn! the chicken cutlet was so huge! haha! only ate half of it in the end. pity barney dearie have to finish it up. sorry boo boo. hehe! :P

we sat around till 11pm and he wanna go to his friend's house to do some stuff. accompanied him there. saw his friend's pet cat. thought of playing with it. but it was so fierce that i don't even dare touch it. ha! then, barney sent me to the bus stop as he wanna go get ready to go mustafa with his friend. was 'sulking' about some stuff but barney dearie make me laugh. idiot he. haha! missing him already ey. lol. later that night, he called to say that he's not going to mustafa. aiya. went back home, wash up and straightaway get to sleep. don't know why i was so lethargic and all weak. ha!

that's all folks. i missed watching project runway being here. ha! but anyway...there' always youtube huh? nights everyone! gonna have my shower and maybe straight to bed! weeeeeeee!!!
haha! yeah! mom's finally back! not alone anymore. hehe! till then! take care people!

lotsa love, sue
xoxo!
mmuacks!
p.s respect others first before even wanting to gain the respect.

back again!

2009-06-03T20:01:00.022+08:00

pure caramel frappe under the hot sun yo! yum yum! :P

tania and nasriah!

leon and asrul!

danial and hafiza!

yan ci and alicia!

lynn and slyvia!

vishnu and revathi!

fyy and amaresh (no longer with us,taking private)!

miss pearl and hidayah!

diyanah, izzatie and aniqah!

shafikah, khairiyah and salwah!

naziah and karthiga!

kalyisha and nurul!

fadhilah and safira!

hazira and me! Firstly, thousand apologies for not updating people... i do have my reasons for that okae! hehe! well, i must say that a lot of things have been happening these days. beloved granny had passed away. it was devastating tho'. but im staying strong no matter what. i've always missed her. loving her always. so ya, i won't say much. other than that, i've been quite busy with school work. assignments and projects are all coming in. so, everytime when i reach home from school, i'll be dead tired.

Those pictures were taken on last friday. it was my class first outing. damn exciting! miss pearl let us wear home clothes to school. feel kinda weird la! everyone in my class was having this feeling feeling as a 'poly student'. as y'all know, polytechnics student get to study in their home clothes everyday. haha! what the hell?! as for that day, there was this fire alarm practice. that was to record the time we gather if emergency occurs. the whole school looked at us as if we're some kinda alien when we walked with our home clothes towards the field. haha! my school take about 9 minutes to get to the field. we failed the 'test' as we're suppose to be on the field in 5 minutes time. guess we're already 'burnt'.. haha! we were having a role play during miss pearl's lesson. we have to act out the different kinda abuse. as for my group, i was the victim. while haz and fad was the abuser. i have to act out as a nerd, studious girl while haz and fad was the rebellious girls. during the play, i borrowed izzatie's cardigan. the story goes like this.

"we were having a class test when asrul (friend to haz and fad) saw haz and fad cheating. he report to the teacher (shafikah). haz and fad was called out the next day. they get reprimanded by the teacher. being angry, they thought i was the one telling the teacher about them cheating. because they know that asrul is their friend and that they thought he wouldn't betray them. haz and fad started threatening, beating me up in the toilet at first. but they were still not happy. they approached me after school. they slapped, punched, pulled my hair and even striped me off. asrul was the one taking a video out if me being 'naked' as he didn't wanna make it obvious that he was the one have betrayed them. my mom (kalyisha) saw the bruises and straightaway bring me to the police station. the police officer (safira) investigate and nabbed the abuser in school. i was then counselled by the school's counsellor (shafikah also). after months, i was back to normal." (only the summary of the play)

There's one part when we were in the 'toilet' and they were 'abusing' me, hazira actually pulled off izzatie's cardigan!!! as they wanna make it looked real but it was really unexpected. i was afraid they will accidentally tore izzatie's cardigan. haha! and i was already on the floor, 'NAKED'. i have to act as if i was crying but instead i was laughing! haha! end up, the play turned up pretty well. good job my friends! :) so yeah. back to the pictures. we went to Junction 8's pizza hut to have our lunch. i ordered a sausage craze baked rice but i ate oriental chicken baked rice. the cook actually make one extra so as not to waste it, i just accept it. it was quite nice somehow. soon after that, we went to Plaza Singapura as we had no plans that day. but only me, hidayah, diyanah, tania, nas, haz, safira, izzatie and asrul. we walked towards the museum and went to the coffeebean to get our drinks. had a pure caramel frappe. it taste so heavenly ho! took pictures and went back home as i got my practice at night. damn shagged oi! but wasted 2 hours in the dance studio as our instructor was not there. tsk! :(

so yeah... that's all folks! just too much to read huh? hehe! gotta go now. body aching all over after napfa test yesterday. phew! luckily all the stations are finally done! :) hehe! till then, adios amigos! :D

to granny, may you rest in peace

we will always remember you

missing you, loving you

im sorry for all the things that i've done

you have always been in my heart

i love you, granny...

lotsa love, sue...

xoxo!

p.s always treasure your loved ones!

mmuaacksss!!!

ya man!

2009-05-04T21:40:00.011+08:00

my new classmates! well,this is the crazy bunch. fun people. love 'em!

rimzie darla feat emma yo! sweeeet!!! hehe!

rimzie darla! love her truckloads!

look like i've long legs huh? i wish! haha!

that's emma! sweet ey? hehe!

tons of eyebags! tsk!

yo people! back again! thousand apologies for not updating for really quite sometimes now. kinda lazy tho'. don't blame me. school's tiring especially it's long hours in school plus an hour journey back home in the bus. got my ass heating hot on the seat..haha! most of the pictures up there was taken last saturday. it was really a last minute thing. ha! was basically slacking at home. never thought i would go out as i had no plans. called both my darlas. aenn darla already had plans with ameerul. while i can't get through rimzie darla at first as her prepaid was low. after awhile then she called me. telling me that her plans with romie,her ex was cancelled. so we started talking at first. i was kinda upset and angry the past few days. argh! really just hate it when people spoil my day. haiz...but what can i do? sometimes,we just can't avoid these kinda things. but i was glad im able to get over it very quickly. hehe!

eventually we met at orchard station. really got nowhere to head. went straight to far east to have our dinner. rimzie darla wanted to eat at Cahaya but there were no seats. so we stand outside,trying look for seats. when i saw a friend of mine! it was apit! haha! never thought i would bump into him there. he was with two of his friends. which i don't even know. but one of them was aenn's friend. we hugged and talked about how casual our dressing were. haha! he was wearing this big tee and shorts with slippers. me? you can see up there. damn casual huh? not really in the mood to dress up tho'. lol. but who cares? as long as we're comfortable with it,style or trends doesn't matter right? hehe! well,we girls get our seats at the stall beside. order our food. basically just catch up things with each other while eating. soon,apit left. damn! they ate very fast! haha! boys are just boys... they were waving goodbye,making a fool of themselves while going down the elevator. ha! after that,we walked til' heeren and took a bus towards CBD area. soon when we got there,bought ice cream and sat near the UOB building. apit was there too. accompany him to the 711 and make him sit with us. haha! evil me! nyehehehehe! :D

the first picture up there was my classmates. that was only 1/3 of it. it was the usual bunch which i hang out with. really love them. fun people i must say. school's really nothing without them. we joke,we laugh,we smile...great times. i wish that stays. hehe! so yeah. im really looking forward to see them everyday. lol. but i really miss my old friends. wonder how they're doing. well,wherever they are,i wish them all the best! they will always remain in my heart. :) to that someone,i really really miss you! and i won't tell you how much i am missing you! haha! it's gonna be a secret i won't tell you dearie! hehe! that's all folks! i had to do some stuff now. school's at 8 tomorrow. so yeah...take care everyone! the swine flu is really something you don't wanna mess with. so better be cautious yo!

lotsa love,sue

xoxo

mmuacks!!!

cherish your loved ones!

heeyy....

2009-04-20T21:10:00.008+08:00

so hello there! well,y'all can just ignore the picture. hair in mess,face so irritating. haha! today,i woke up early! just don't wanna be late for school. as i took the bus. thought of making myself food for lunch as i wanna save money but i had hard time tying my hair. so no lunchbox. haha! yet again,it's my REAL hair people. im still lovin' it. say whatever you wanna say yo! went out quite early as i thought bus would come must earlier. but no. it still came at 7am. reached interchange just in time at 8am . by the time i walk to school it's already a few minutes gone. ha! while walking in,saw one of my classmates,safira. i was still kinda sleepy tho'.

lessons starts today. ms dorcas had our class to do debate. it was fun. my friends really had good points between play and work. it really do keep our mind going by then. then,it was break time! haha! happy me! most of us had chicken rice! see how cute we are. lol! after that was ms pearl lesson. watch the movie i am Sam. it really touched our hearts. some of my classmates got tears in their eyes. (including me. hehe! :P) very nice movie it was. we had our reflections wrote down after that. her period was 3hours before school ends! but we were dismissed early. talked to ms pearl about some admin stuff and off we go! one of my friend,nasriah was really funny. just by looking at her can really make me laugh my socks off! haha! as we head back home,she was doing the 'heeyy sign' that Nikeysha from the reality series of America's next top model always do. it was hilarious just by looking at her doing it. i can't stop myself from laughing. lol! soon when i reached the bus interchange,my bus arrived. yeah! well,i don't have to wait too long right? hehe!

now,im really desperate for cash! im really outta cash! school stuff to be paid and bus fare was damn adult fare. wonder when we getting the new one. haiz...i had to plan something out really quickly. i can't even work. i just wanna do something great for a friend's birthday which is coming soon. can't afford to mess it up. gosh! i hope i'll be able to save some money on time tho'. hmmm...was feeling dizzy this morning til' i've reached home. i wonder why. my sis cooked some instant noodles for me to eat. thanks sis. soon when i wanna rest,rima darla called me! she was sharing as how happy she was. knowing the fact that she is,it just kept me smiling. im really happy for her. as for me? im gonna just live my life to the fullest. chey! haha! well,im glad the old me is gone! everytime when i looked at the sun,it just make me wanna smile. as i know,He had me on this world for a reason. reasons for everything. so cheer up people! it's not always easy in life. just keep on smiling yo! that's all folks!

lotsa love,sue

xoxo...

mmuacks!

schools in yo!

2009-04-19T21:22:00.008+08:00

hey ho! back again! okae. there will no pictures as my memory card is with aenn darla. so yeah...im gonna post it once i got it back. ;)
recently,i've been goin out. even tho' school is starting. hehe! well,i went to watch gigs,dance competitions and accompany my friend to get a pair of slippers. ha! were enjoying myself even tho' i know that i haven't got things prepared for school! just being naugthy before school even started. lol. was really nervous for the first day. and i don't know why! damn! first thing in the morning and i wasn't feeling too well. feels like i need the toilet. haha! went in with aishah and we looked for our names on the board where all courses were there. as we got into different courses,i don't wish to be apart with her as i was so nervous! suddenly i felt like a primary1 kid who have just enter school. haha! my class was right in front. so front and i was sitting right in the middle of the line. i just sat quiet until the bridge leaders welcome us.

afterall,it was nothing. make friends among my classmates. only 5 guys in my class. by the 2nd day,we already had our own clique of friends. funny people they are. get along quite fast just like a sponge that absorbs water. haha! okae,lame. well,i must say there were many pretty girls in my school. but hey! im straight! lol. serioulsy. it was fun being in school but yet again it was tiring tho. especially when you have to sit in the bus for an hour. well,i can always take the train but i prefer taking bus. :) okae. there's just alot to talk about school. update more about it again when i have the time.

so yeah...went out yesterday with my two gorgeous girlfriends and halis. i got my practice at 4pm but i was late. bad girl huh? ha! well,i hate myself for that too. let's just hope i'll get to change that bad habit of mine. haiz...i met them up at jurong east. straight we went to penisular. i wanna see some shoes and had a passport photo taken. don't know where i put the previous ones. ha! soon after that we head towards boat quay. get some food from 711 and sat somewhere around the UOB building. we took pictures,singing...haha! basically,just having fun tho'...then,aenn darla suggested to go esplanade. we watch this accoustic performance by an indonesia band. it was really nice. but we got ourselves sleepy. soon when it ends,we walked towards the station. took crazy pictures along the way. and i got myself blisters! gosh! i took the shoes off once i've reached my block. lol. again,crazy day i have with them! tiring yet enjoying!

today,i can't really go out. granny's gonna be alone. so yeah...accompanied her at home. do some spring cleaning yo! hehe! can't believe i did that. one thing,i just hope granny gonna be alright. i worried everytime when i looked at her. get well soon granny. maybe i never say this. but i love you,granny. and im sorry for everything that i've done. tomorrow's schooling. so yeah. im gonna get ready. and for that someone,i miss you. i really do. and im really not what you think i am. still,i never had give up. i can be a lil' harsh on you but i still cares. im not gonna tell you how i feel. as im just a friend. a normal one. wherever you are,do take good care of yourself.
that's all fellas! whatever happens,always look on the bright side of life! :D smile always yo!
lotsa lotsa love,sue
xoxo...
mmmuacks!

great people!

2009-04-08T22:24:00.022+08:00

an outing with aenn darla...at taka's kfc! taken last saturday...

hola everyone! today,i wanna share with y'all some of the wonderful people i've know! last wednesday,i went shisha with one of my best primary school buddy! his name was Asharudeen. but sometimes i would call him my very own Shah Rukh Khan,a bollywood hero. hehe! it was like a birthday treat for me. since we haven't meet for quite some times,we chilled and talked about our primary school days. it was unforgettable! i used to call him mutton and he call me chicken back then. even till now! haha! well,i must say time really flies. and now,he's currently in sec5 taking O's while school's starting next week for me. when we were chatting,our glass was emptied,a man and a lady wearing a tudung came up. the man asked us whether he can filmed us. i was kinda shock at first. i looked at my friend and we thought why not. we ain't that pretty face anyway but who cares. it's about the shop not us. haha! we took pictures,chat and chilled. but after awhile,mutton was getting tired as he got school. so we went off around 10. it was indeed a great day even tho' it was only for awhile. hoping to see you soon,mutton...and yet again,thanks for the treat! :)

while on saturday,i went out with aenn darla. well,i thought rimzie darla will be able to make it. but no. we can't even get through her. wonder where she have gone to. really missed her so much. anyway,we go ahead with our plans as we were really bored that day and aenn darla wanted to get a shoe and leggings. we met up at the control station and straight we went to far east. there was a shoe sale but aenn darla was not interested. so we thought of walking around. survey on the price and stuff. we went all the way to heeren. ha! walk around and nothing seem to fit aenn's budget. we head back to wisma. went to cotton on,forever21 and there was a sale too! aenn bought a leggings and a shirt from cotton on. we saw this sweater for 10bucks! gosh! it was really a sale! aenn wants it but she got too many sweaters at home. haha! kinda wasted not to buy it somehow. then,we had our dinner. talking about our life and off we set to the bus stop. aenn wanna get a head band so we make a final rush to heeren. lol. well,that's just aenn. she always wanna look her best. we head to marina to meet audre. one of aenn's friend. soon when we meet up,we walked towards the CBD area. a funny guy he was. we yak all the way til' midnight and they sent me to the bus stop as im not staying til' morning. barney darla called me on the way home,talking about his grandfather who is admitted to the hospital. i felt sorry for him. plus,i was worried when he told me that his 'old actions' is acting up again. how i wish i can do something about it. but im sure he'll be alright. he's a superman! while im the supergirl! okae,lame. haha! whatever it is,im gonna be just by his side,making sure that my buddy is okae. :)

that should be all. keep on smiling people. don't let troubles conquer ur life. enjoy your lives while you still can. hehe!

lotsa love,sue
xoxo...

muacks!

ending it beautifully...:)

2009-03-31T23:27:00.023+08:00

that's senior nigel!

the pink jenga! but i didn't manage to play it! argh!

how sweet of them to make that for me...feel so touched!!! hehe!

rimzie darla with sister...used to be my neighbours...hehe!

my classmates...dawn and carmen...appreciate them for waiting...

my beautiful sisters that make it happened...thanks alot dear sisters...love you both...

the birthday wish...

thanks to my gorgeous girlfriends,im done! time for cake cutting!

a surprise visit by the clowns while was doing my makeup...haha!

getting ready when aeenn darla snap this...haha! big hair,big hair....

hello! okae...i must apologize for not updating my blog for some days now...my bad...but hey! im already here! so yeah...wanna know what i've been doing? well,i've been busy preparing for my birthday party. it was held at pasir ris costa sand resort. as y'all know my birthday falls on the 21st of march but i celebrate it on the 22nd which is on sunday. but was kinda upset when i started to fall sick. still,the party must go on. i was so excited about it tho'...not many turn up. on the day itself,we check in a bit later. as the previous people check out only after 2.30pm and we couldn't get to check in just yet! i was so worried as i told my friends to come after 3pm onwards! i was still at home when my classmates call me! it was carmen. she called to tell me that she have reached. oh dear! i became panic...haha! but i was glad she was fine with it. when i reached there it was already 5 in the afternoon! we quickly set up everything. my sis fiancee and friends was there to help us with the fire and all. first,it was my both darla,halis and mimie to reach. i was so happy when they arrived as the person who i expected for was still not sure of coming down. i feel so touched when they handed me with a birthday gift that they took time to make and followed by a hug so warm. i almost feel like crying as i was so glad i have them. thanks darla!

continue on the work as my both sis needed help. so yeah. after awhile,my njfaith family was down. i was so happy that i forgot to pass them the drinks. haha! dumb! they came with different sorts of presents. fai,isya and abg rafi took the trouble to make a card for me! with my pictures in it. they make me read in front of everyone. and they even asked nashrul to put on the adidas slippers he bought me. they were singing and nashrul was on his knees! gosh!!! only god knows how blushed i am! i feel like digging a hole of my own to bury my head! haha! but after all that,i was so much appreciative of what they had given me. no matter big or small,expensive or not,i know it's the thoughts that counts. i was so grateful. as nightfall,one by one showed up. nigel then followed by jasone and his friend. i went up. with some help of my both darla,i dolled myself up. when my sis came up and told me about those clowns! and when im down,i thought they were just gonna say hello when they started singing me a loud birthday song! i was so surprised that i just stood there when my both darla pulled me to take a picture with the clowns! haha! y'all can see how unprepared i was. soon when im done,the birthday cake was already in front,they sing me a very loud birthday song again. and it wasn't a short one okae! as i was already feeling so blushed,i clapped and sing along. haha! cut the cake,pictures taken and i gave them out. i was glad everyone was enjoying the party tho' there wasn't any music. and all my problems seemed to be disappeared. nothing and no words can express how happy i was. again,thanks to all this people. what i didn't expect was a call from someone saying that he's coming. i was surprised. and he gave me this expensive thing ever! i was lost of words as he used up most of his salary to get me something like that. as i missed him so much,i could only smile and say thanks profusely. i was glad he turned up. all my problems seemed to be fading now. im starting to except things. as for that someone...im still waiting...

haha! now,i did nothing much. i either slack at home,out for dance practice,went to watch dance comp at west coast plaza,meet up with old friends and even to sentosa...collected my testimonial already. results wasn't too good but comments was quite okae. hehe! i meet up with barney and we catch a movie last friday. after that,we chilled at my place. catch things up and he went back home. he say something that shocked me! haha! anyway,i miss you dear barney. meet up soon huh? not only him. to all my old friends,i really miss u guys. hope we get back once in awhile. :)

as for today,i went to ite bishan. to register and get school uniform. then head to tampines to settle some stuff and thought of buying my shoes. but naah...went to bugis to eat then raffles and back home. so yeah...that's all folks!

lotsa love,sue

xoxo

to people out there who have once fallen out of love,let me tell you one thing. don't ever lose hope. :) figure it out. till then,love y'all!

hello...

2009-03-18T01:48:00.007+08:00

for people who doesn't know me. i use no extensions. so get this straight.

well,as y'all know that is barney. a friend of mine. went to his crib today. nothing much but just to take some songs from my mp3. then,i played games on his laptop. as there was no internet access,i just waste time playing it. ha! had this lontong(rice cake) with anchorvies cooked with serunding(coconut flakes?). i don't know much about it actually. seriously i don't. hehe! still,i ate it as i had no breakfast but just sweets. yeah. as he already plan to go for job interviews with his friend,i make a move to jurong east. i was alone. so i called some of my friends. most of them can't make it. sometimes i wonder,where are they when i need them? hmmm...but yet again,i can't expect much. plus,i don't wanna trouble them. sometimes we just have to do things on our own huh? about being independent and stuff. haha! like real huh? the weather is really hot today. i have to walk from the interchange all the way to the building(where the sony ericsson customer service can be found). went up,take ma que and wait. and i sat right under the television! idiot. people seemed to be looking at me but naah...ain't that pretty enough lurr...nonsense me. im like in the center of attraction! haha! as it was my turn,talked about my problem and off i go! ha! it was a humid day but i was sneezing my way out. weird. lol. walked back to the interchange and had my ez link topup. waited for the bus...blablabla...go home accompany my sis to get some dinner. it was alot mayn! after all that,it went 'out' again. (u know what i mean) i don't know what's wrong with me.

i've lost my appeite nowadays. and whatever i ate seemed to got out from my stomach. how to be chubby like that? ha! on sunday,i threw up on what i ate. becoming unhealthy now. i wonder what's wrong with my body. usually when im down,i would tend to gorge myself with tons of food. now,it's the opposite. i hope im just fine. being too skinny is a problem sometimes.

again,i wasn't myself. so many things happened. as i tried to forget about him. to runaway from reality. i did some thinking lately too...haiz...

monday,my lovely girlfriends planned to watch this indonesia band call mocca. but it was cancelled. aeenn dearie was too tired after a friend's chalet and rimzie darla wanted to save some cash. still,i wanna watch it. guess what? after slacking the whole afternoon,i dolled myself up to go to esplanade. alone. but when i got there,it was too late. mocca was already giving autographs to the fans. and i saw aeenn's friends...the rejeks. so yeah. i just went straight to the waterfront as i don't really know them. when i got there,i just find a sit. sheikh haikel and his wife appear on the stage saying that the singer of plain sunset,john chan was there. so i was glad i stayed. haha! his performance was spectacular! nice songs,great lyrics and a voice so endearing. a cool guy he was i must say. but too bad,my dear friend,apek can't watch his favourite guy performed. sorry my boy. if i know,i would have told him earlier. yeah...recorded some of his song on the phone and off i go. i was clueless on where to go. was hoping to meet up with someone whom i would know. but guess not. haha! had sweet corn and walked to the bus stop. decided to take the long way instead as i wanna clear up my mind. it was totally in a mess after crying my eyes out the whole afternoon and night the day before. so yeah...

as a human being,we all need somebody. a companion,a friend...somebody whom we can shares story with,happiness with...all ups and down. but we can't expect much. what we want in life,doesn't mean we could get it. still,we have to work hard to achieve it. frankly,i feel jealous everytime my darlins had someone who call them whenever we're outside. but when i check my phone,there's nothing. it's like no one who cares about me. (well,except my darlins and family)

tonight,i found out something. something which i don't wish to know. the guy i loved is online. but i appeared offline. he told me he wanted to sleep. but i think he's chatting with the girl right now. it's really disappointing tho'. i thought he would never tell me lies. basically im just crying inside of me. no point for me to say anything to him as he would still points the finger back at me. as much as i wanted him to be happy,im hurting as much. how can i let go? how can i just watch him as he turn his back on me? how? it's hard. sometimes,i would like him so much. but other days i would just hate him. and everyday i would missed him. i thought i manage to overcome it but somehow,something just pull me back. the more i wanna let go,the more im thinking about him. but still,im not giving up. let him be with the girl he wants. im sure,one day things would change. it's raining now,cuddle up under your blankets people. it's gonna be very cold. morning. let dreams flow. as for me...a dreamer as it is.

lotsa love,sue

xoxo

cherish the one you love,because you will never know when they'll be gone. trust me.

kiaora!

2009-03-15T01:45:00.013+08:00

me under the scorching sun...hot hot heat yo!

never plan this and never thought we are doing the same thing! ha! okae,lame...

tryin to show offf his muscle when he's still so skinny...haha!

im back! well,i finally get to meet barney. he's a friend of mine which im close to. so don't be mistaken us as an item. he'll be mad to hear that. haha! (the thing is,he likes someone else i think.) hehe! so yeah...here goes. wake up early in the morning. we planned to go sentosa to tann. well,actually i wanna catch the movie push with him. it have been quite some time since the last time we watch a movie together. but naah...because there's a live soccer match between liverpool and manchester united. how sad as i wanted so badly to watch that movie. the trailer really catch my attention. well,anyways...i have to understand. guys just LOVE soccer you see. am i right guys? ha! it was really hot today i must say. we're like burning. haha! my body is still kinda hot tho'. but im in my sis' cardigan as the night is really cold. ha! so yeah...before we go,he bought this beef noodles. damn! it was hot and spicy. it really got me coughing. and,we didn't finish it. wasted. we play around with the water before we set off. he keeps swimming here and there. trying to make me jealous. as i cnt swim! haha! at the toilet,as usual it will be crowded somehow. i showered outside while a girl beside me was laughing as i wore a different bikini undies. well,actually she laughed as she too have a different undies! totally different! haha! funny her. i can't laughed out as im alone. people might think im crazy. haha! do some make up and off we go to eat. we went to banquet at habourfront. he ordered fried kway teow and a seafood carrot cake? it was alot! i can't finish it and regret buying it as i have it for a number of times last week! aiya! hehe! then,he have to go to his auntie place to watch soccer together with the cousins. i must say it was a short day. didn't get to do much things. what to do ya?

i accompany him in the bus on the way there. but i just kept quiet. stoopid me. because something happened. and i don't know why he's so angry with me. when we've reached,i change some cash and i took 61 home. a very long journey it was. as i was in the bus a lot of things just went through my mind. i've really lost the one i love so dearly to a friend. my own friend. what can i do? it's one sided. all my hopes have crushed. til' now,im still feeling the pain even tho' he's happy. weird? it's like the first time which i really fall for a guy but guess im a lil too late. he already found someone new. everyday,i would tell myself to be strong but i don't think i can. it hurts. anyway,nothing i say now will change his feelings for her. silly me. wonder when will this feeling go? how many more months must i suffer? emo enough huh? haha! wth! but seriously,even tho' how hard i tried,it just won't go. ha! it's been months already! aiya...heart pain y'all know! even now,the girl likes him too. gosh! dilemma mayn...what should i do?! i want them to be happy but im hurting. idiot! whatever la! maybe it's just fate. i've lost him.

i better sleep. maybe much more better. i can only be a dreamer anyway. things just won't be real for me anymore. nights? morning perhaps. sweet dreams everyone.

lotsa love,sue

xoxo

hey ho!

2009-03-12T00:30:00.014+08:00

i know...my hair is in a mess...because of the wind laaa....

firstly,my apologies for the late updates. those pictures were taken on sunday. my 2nd sis is finally engaged. it was tiring as i need to do some spring cleaning and my back really hurts. i was looking forward to it somehow. we were in green. well,except for my brother. yeah...my auntie and uncle came first to help us with the house. my auntie really took all the trouble to help us tho'...thanks to her my house were in tidy. :) we wait quite long for my sis boyfriend to come. but overall,it went well even tho' everyone was dead tired that day.

and now...it's 1am in the morning going 2 but im still up. why? because i've been having some probs with my computer. argh! damn pissed!!! i really took my time to edit my blog when the computer just lagged. haiz...things just go wrong today. i didn't get to went with him as he's out with his friends to get some soccer stuff. i can't blame him tho'. plus my phone is making problems. i can't really text as the keypads are outta control! seriously! i could only call. how sad. now,it even have a crack around the keypads. i don't know how it happened but i am pretty upset about it. i can't do anything much with it now. things just get worse as days goes by. well,i hope not.

im missing someone so dearly. i don't think he even notices it. i don't know why i feel like meeting him everyday. it's weird. i just hope this feeling would go. if only he could understand me much better. i wonder what would he ever think of me. or maybe not. i doubt so he even thinks about someone like me. im just nobody yeah? ha! pathetic me! sometimes im just clueless.

i don't know what to do. it's hard to figure it out too. gosh! if only i can do something about it. let's just stop here. i'll be back soon. hopefully this weird feelings would go.

lotsa love,sue

xoxo

psssst!!!

2009-03-03T20:39:00.006+08:00

hey there! see that small kid up there? that's sufi. it's a kid whom my 2nd sis babysit every 5 days a week. yeah...today my sis and my mom went out. my 2nd sis is getting engaged soon. which is this sunday. so they went out early to get stuff for it. so i have to fetch the boy up after school. he maybe cute but sometimes,he just get on our nerves. well,kids anyway...when i fetch him,i saw his dad. i panic. i don't know why tho'...haha! my sis told me to avoid him as possible 'cause sufi's mom don't want him to bring sufi out. (sufi's parents are divorced you see) but before i could avoid him,he already saw sufi! my mind went blank when he ask me permisson to bring sufi out. i didn't manage to stop him. damn! i felt scared. idiot me. but anyway,he's no stranger to sufi. so why must i worry right? haha! yeah...i just went back home with sufi's schoolbag. find some food and watch tv til' my sis and mom came back. they bought me donuts! yummy! ha! then,i got a call from him. kinda shock tho'...as he finish school early,i asked him to drop down at my place. he had a drink,check his friendster profile and time for him to went back. i know. it was only for awhile. well,what can i do...he still have to go...sent him to the bus stop but i wasn't that sastified. ha! i must say things are really different between us. how sad. anyway,i can't say much about it. im sure one day,things will get back as what it is. and im not giving up. ha! that's all folks!

lotsa love,sue...

xoxo!

muacks!

yo pple!

2009-03-02T20:00:00.016+08:00

hey hey! back again yo! yeah...i know. it's already 3 days since the last time im here. well,anyway im gonna share with y'all how much i have fun with my beautiful girlfriends. they're just so fly and gorgeous girls i've known. we went shisha-ing last saturday. yup! but before that we already planned to go shopping together. but,i was kinda caught up with some stuff at home. granny's alone and im was kinda worried to leave her alone. yeah...i accompanied her til' evening. after my 1st sis came back,i dolled myself up and went bugis straight to meet 'em. as they took the bus from town,i took my time to withdraw some cash to topup my ezlink. ha! still,i was early. i guess? haha!

when they arrived,shafila were there too! with her fabolous ed hardy tee and birkerstocks. simple but still,it was so dope! ha! hmm...ouhk. while aeenn and rimzie darlin bought this cute earrings from forever21 plus stuff from stussy. how cool was that?! yeah...then,we went straight to haji lane. aeenn darla met up with her friends for awhile and they asked us if we wanna joined them. but nope. we still go on our own 'cause we feel that we're like an extra among 'em. we found this cool place. we went up. man,youngsters all around. haha! we ordered a cherry flavour shisha and a sprite. we took pictures and all. basically,just going 'wild' everytime we meet. that's just us i guess huh? laughing at our pictures,making a fool of ourselves. it was whole load of fun! even when it's time to go home,we were still so energetic. we ran and shout on the road like nobody business. seriously,it was crazy. haha! as usual,i went back alone since i got a straight bus home. yeah...

yesterday,i meet up with barney! haha! i've always missed him 'cause nowadays we could hardly meet. we only went vivo to eat and then my place to chill as it was raining. well,i was glad to meet him. he told me something that make me blushed! haha! okae...let's not talk about it. i was so happy that we get to spent time together. and for today,im at home slackin as usual. ha! well,that's just me. hehe! so yeah...that's all folks! haha!

lotsa love,

sue...

xoxo everyone! muacks!

hey ho!

2009-02-26T23:12:00.015+08:00

here i am again! it have been a few days now. been going out almost everyday. hehe! til' im outta cash! it's time for nature call. "mommy,i need some *ka-ching! ka-ching!" haha! well,since im not working ya. (still under my mom and sister supervision la) yeah...and today since i don't even have the transport money,im just slacking at home watching tv,rolling around,reading magazine,trimming ma nails...blablabla...yeah... that's about it.

yesterday,i went to the griller. a restaurant at tiong bahru plaza. one of my classmate,aishah wanted to treat us. it was somehow a small gathering for us since we're going separate ways. but how sad when most of them can't make it. there's only me and her. so we called some of the guy friends. i was kinda pissed out at first 'cause the boys are not giving me the exact answer when aishah is already complaining that she's hungry. ha! feel like knocking their heads out! haha! well,i was still thankful to aishah even though our plan didn't go as planned. i had smoked chicken pasta and sprite. i would say it was okae la. i put alot of cheese on it. ha! and im so fascinated with the glass jar. it was not really like a normal glass. hehe! it cost only $1.50!!! so worth it. haha! well,after that we go to the arcade. then,the boys arrived. they ate then we watch movie. we watch he's just not that into you. i find the movie kinda meaningful. maybe it helps me understand boys much better. yeah...and it was really cold inside plus im wearing shorts! haha! after it ends,it's the boys turn to play arcade. then,we went off. the rest took train home but since my ezlink card only left with a few cents,i walked towards henderson. suddenly,aidil and friends came up to my mind. they're my primary school friends. i called them up. and we chill for awhile. went home with aliff,one of the twins. talked about our old friends and stuff. finally im home. ate pizza and off to sleep! that's all folks! haha!

lotsa love,

sue...

xoxo to all!

hola!

2009-02-21T20:15:00.000+08:00

well,as y'all know. this is my first time here. hehe! so yeah...my blog won't be that exciting to read anyway...here goes huh?

this week,i don't really feel like myself. it's weird. there's just so many things that had happened. i lost my appetite,my mood to do things i like and even the way i talk to people. i don't relly seem interested in the conversation. me,myself don't understand what's wrong. maybe im just tired of all the dance practices i had? hmmm...i don't really know...maybe it is.

okae. let's move on. tell u guys more about it next time...saturday it is today but im at home feeling kinda tired after being with my granny at the hospital almost the whole day yesterday. feels kinda sad looking at my granny sometimes. i slept beside her on the hospital bed but still,i didn't really sleep quite well. anyway,im glad i could at least accompany granny...:) i learn quite alot when i was at the hospital. about having patience. haha! okae...i think i stop here...

lotsa love,sue...

xoxo!